Dear Baby (5.5 weeks)

Dear Baby,

We found out that we were going to be having you almost 2 weeks ago. I was not expecting a positive test so early (3.5 weeks is crazy early) but we could not have been more excited.... or more terrified. You were not an easy baby to come by. After we lost your brother or sister in June, we were told that they would tell you that we were amazing and you should come down to us the very next cycle. We were told that many women are able to get pregnant right away, and for our family members that had suffered the same type of loss, it was true for them. And we were sure it was going to be true for us. But it wasn't. We waited what seemed like forever for those two little pink lines that would mean that you were here with us. I think I needed those months to be frustrated so that I would be excited again and not frozen with terror the whole first trimester. I'm still terrified, but I'm excited and hopeful now. You've made your little presence known already in just 2 weeks and I'm so excited for all of the stages to come. I'm convinced you're the luckiest baby, baby. Your daddy.... he's the best daddy any baby could have. Baby, he's taken amazing care of me the last two + years, and he's already taken amazing care of you. He's run to the gas station 5 seconds before it closes so he could get me that 32 oz Fruit Punch that I NEEDED. He cleans out the fridge when the slightest smell makes me queasy. He makes sure the ice in my water doesn't make my water taste like salsa. I tell you baby, we're the luckiest to have him. And he and I are the luckiest to have you. We'll never doubt that. And we cannot wait to meet you soon (even though it feels like the next 8 months are going to drag on.)

Love,

Mommy